Friday, January 23, 2009

Sometimes I just think....

....like, what the fuck?

Why is this happening? Or more importantly, why the fuck ISN'T this happening?

Everytime I get super tired for no apparent reason I secretly hope it's because I'm pregnant.

Everytime I feel nauseous for no apparent reason I secretly hope it's because I'm pregnant

Everytime I see my little gut I secretly hope it's because I'm pregnant (this one more than the others!)

This lyric rings sooo true to me and has for a long time, since I started thinking "bébé". It's Radiohead, the song "There There"

"JUST 'CAUSE YOU FEEL IT/
DOESN'T MEANT IT'S THERE"

So fucking true. I'm scrappin' that, tonight hopefully, I need to get it out.

Random baby related thoughts: January 23rd, 2009

Monday, January 5, 2009

Well, another year over, and a new one just begun...

No baby in '08, really hoping for one in '09 (which means getting pregnant in the next 2 months...very unlikely.)

I finished my first cycle (6 weeks long, those buggers!) today, starting a new one, and so far the charting thing hasn't been too bad. So far I'm only tracking temps and intercourse, but I may get into it a bit more if need be. Getting up on the weekends was a pain, but I only missed about 4 days (took the temp later than 6:30), so that's not too bad overall, I liked seeing how the chart formed, and it looks like (not for sure, but maybe), I ovulated, which is what I need to know in the first place.

So, as of right now, my plan is:
-Chart for another 2 cycles, which brings me to the end of March or so; see if I can find a pattern of some sort...
-If nothing happens by then, call a gynaecologist and let them know I would like to get some tests done; go from there. Also go see my family doctor to get some blood work done for my thyroid, see if that has changed or needs treatment.
-Try to eat better and exercise more in the meantime

Sooo, not much else new to report, just going to keep trackin' along, monitoring my possible fertile days and taking advantage of those and hoping for the best. That's all I can do at this point, is hope.

Happy New Year, let's hope it's THE year.